It has been four days since I last saw you, since our last walk together…I know you’re in Heaven by now, I hope it is filled with those rascally wabbits you so wanted to chase while we hiked through Discovery Park, or maybe you are swimming after the ducks and gulls that you always fixated on while we walked along the Sound.
I wanted to tell you again, I will say this everyday until I die, how much I love you and how much you meant to me. Even when you were alive, I told you everyday I loved you and that you were my sweet boy. I used to ask you all the time, “Sammy, how did you get so sweet”? You would always gaze up at me with your big beautiful brown eyes. I knew what you were saying. You were saying, “I’m sweet, because I know how much you love me, you love me a ton”. Yes, you always knew how special you were and still are to me, no matter what. I’ve been asking myself what I miss most about you. I still cannot answer this question, because you had so many wonderful and beautiful personality traits and characteristics, but you also know how handsome you were. You drove all the ladies crazy, remember how so many people would pull over and say how beautiful and handsome you are? Goodness, I thought maybe you’d become conceited after all of these compliments, but you never did, you were only happy to be alive and with us.
I will miss the way you purred (oops–like a kitty!), your howling at the phone’s ringtone when it would ring, racing in yard until your ears would be turned inside out and I would tell you, “Sammy, fix your hair, silly”. I will miss how you used to smile at me every time I’d walk through the door, I will miss you curled up with me, your playfulness, goofy, loveliness, craziness, intelligence, kindness, sweetness, gentleness, energy, our special hikes and trips together……and more. You were the best thing that happened to me and my life, I have always said you were my soul mate, our friend Charlie calls us, “kindred spirits” and that we had a beautiful relationship.
Oh, Sammy I do hope you know that I am missing you so much, and I’m so sorry this terrible tragedy took your life so painfully and too soon. My goal was to always protect you and I felt like I didn’t protect you enough, perhaps you were protecting me this time and it is so like you to do this, you always gave me so much and looked after me. You are a true angel. I always said, “God is Dog, Dog is God”.
I love you so much monkey-man, little man, my buddy. I know how much you loved me calling you these little pet names. I miss you and will always remember our great special times together. Together, we are going to help others be safe and protect other four-legged best friends so that they can live a great full life. You loved people and you loved other dogs, I know you would want me to spread the word and make others aware of what you went through, because it can happen again and to anyone and their beloved pets.
I will do this for you Sammy. I will be thinking and dreaming of you….Please be safe, I know you are.
I love you, buddy. Love, me